Living poor isn't so bad

I haven't worked freelance PA gigs in over 4 weeks, and even though it's getting down to the point of concern for my financial well being, it's all good.

A few concerned people like my ex have poked their heads and asked "what up?"

It's been real creative, got the CA drought documentary in post production, I might become a contributing writer for 3 websites, and at the very least I get to have fun doing the things that make me happy.

There's a tremendous fear that circles itself around in the life of a freelancer. Particularly a freelance writer. It's good though, it makes one feel in tune to how fleeting success is. You may find a nest egg that feeds you for a while, then all of a sudden it vanishes.

I'm not sure if it even matters in the long term, I remember the homeboy Alan Watts talked about enjoying the journey, savoring the path. It truly makes sense, the long term goal may transform into something entirely different, what's the point of feeling like garbage for a few extra bucks?

I mean I totally get it, you've got to make a living and act adult. You can't expect to live off handouts and to barely scrape by. But honestly, why does it feel much better than when I had a ton of disposable income. Even though I'm wary to purchase things it does feel great to know I can still enjoy myself with the essentials.