Elixer

Obtaining a intimate relationship means that one involves themselves fully to a relationship, assuming monogamy. If one were to keep this ideal intact in a business situation then it would be like a inebriated(read: wasted) 21 year old betting it all on lucky 7. You can achieve great success when it goes well, but when the structure fails you feel it so much worse than if one were to branch out and search other endeavors.

I believe one mate is sufficient, although some may find success by spreading their seed like monsanto, for me at least: one person can provide satisfactory(referring to a mate as satisfactory is remarkably unsexy) joy.

The melancholy sensations in uncertainty requires a pensive mind to seek an answer to the plaguing question. What improvements must I make?Was I wrong and should I change who I am? Or is this something that defines me and perhaps my mate must then decide whether they shall embrace or discard me.

There's a lot of unaswered questions is relationships, ultimately it is a work in progress. The dynamics are like any other interaction, and they can provide for meaningful encounters, rich in depth. But when it falters and progress halts, it can be a lingering sensation of inadequacy, uncertainty, and hopelessness.

The ultimate question beckons, is it worth it?

Pressure points

The mounted weight has the capability to lure one into a false sense of security. While engaged it expresses itself as a rewarding joy, but with the same calming hand it's flung its wrath with a careless grip. Looking sorely to bridge the gap within selfishness and self destruction.A primitive form of self preservation, it becomes a beast trapped in the corner.

It has the correct gestures and form but it dances off rhythm. Sheltered within what it expresses to others as only a way of exposing sensations. It's pierced a void within what it claims to protect and love. A battered betrayed shield that meant well but was too close to the treasure. As soon as the mind awakens it shows the important truth, senses flushed it tries to tear away at its eyes but sensibilities expose all. Trust that is lost should never be retrieved, a careless action propels one into harms way.

Wolves In The Throne(part deux)

A very important trait to never conceal within yourself is reserved humility. Be aware that you could be potentially wrong, your tastes and attitudes change and life is not catered to your whim. Don't submit to a feeling of helplessness, just understand that with perspective comes a proper understanding of where you are in life.

Another important fact to recall is that we will commonly neglect perfectly solid advice that we would (say we could) adhere to if we had time to rationalize.

It's difficult to rationalize when you have starved wolves in your presence. Muddling mating instincts with alcohol,80's music, and a streak of seeing other people deceit their love interests is a hard battle to feel secure in. It's a unfair war, this is Bruce Lee in his prime fighting a blindfolded anorexic with cerebral palsy as they struggle to find their shutterbug cellphone within the confines of a kit-kat bar laden fanny pack.In a room full of testosterone, men will adhere to no standard of gentlemen like tactics. I've witnessed them fight for scraps, unwilling to concern themselves with the fact that even if you can steal the girl there's a reason she's magnetized by your hairy stomach and dreadlocks. If she's the prize acquisition willing to leave her mate by your posturing up and vain comments on how "they look so fine"and have "an original style" while you salivate then there's a chance that yes, congratulations, she has a cabinet dedicated to herpes medication.

The need to procreate is so strong that people will openly set aside any inhibitions in order for even a glimpse of some thigh. It's such a strong sensation that once we have settled on monogamy with a mate you guard that position with an urgency where hostility is eminent to any perceived threat. People would rather disregard any notion of sensibility in order to keep a thriving pulse in the relationship. I don't believe having a good friend of the opposite sex that you meet up with individually is possible without a convincing desire to also mate with them.To be willing to talk to someone in a setting where the alcohol isn't the only fluid causing stimulation is an open invitation to be treated in that regard. You become an animal in heat openly taking in requests to anyone who keeps a business card to display their spastic 3rd grader fingerpainting art.

Feeling secure in a relationship where you feel the other person wouldn't cheat isn't enough to disregard the fact that all humans can falter. Devotion is the ultimate goal but there are multiple factors that hinder that progression.Never forget that no human is immune to turning on their integrity. Suffering and helplessness will occur in a relationship, but it can breed growth and redevelopment. If it's as good as you say it is, you will never be numb to the pain. It will always be a potential sensation.It becomes foolish and greedy to only expect bliss and rainbow sunshine kisses. If the pain comes from a lack of understanding and not as fuel for petty revenge than it should be used as a force to teach and ask questions about. The wolves will always circle around,but as long as the relationship is healthy and based off love and understanding they will always remain at bay.They aren't a threat if what is retained is the initial motivations that we possess.

There's a lot of learning to be gained from the spawn of helplessness and sorrow, it provides nourishment for the positivity because these components are all one. If we are correcting our structure we become able to use it to better ourselves.

Wolves In The Throne

There are very few emotions that exist that cause one to immediately seek a moment of safety. Insecurity has the capability to cause even the most lax of us to look for shelter in getting back at someone. The end result being that no one is satisfied because the original problem remains. The moment one begins to express themselves in a way that is a mock version of self destruction is when you put yourself in a vindictive cycle of low standards and regret.In simple terms, you can't expect victory if you punch yourself in the dick. To pursue an attitude of disregarding ones own integrity is to automatically assume subordination. As soon as my integrity gets washed in with hurt pride I can never retain my original essence.

A simple few seconds can change the tempo of an otherwise normal experience. When things are well we never take a moment to appreciate the experience. However as soon as things change we become prone to look for the root cause. It's important to find the root cause but never in the expense of trying to hurt another person while retaining the original problem. We hurt the individual and contribute to suffering.

It becomes important to look at the end result. Is a problem really worth the nagging negativity? If I hurt you in the process is it really worth it? Do the ends justify the means? And just as important is the valuable lost reputation, not in the eyes of others but within yourself. Would you appreciate being treated the way you have decided to act? Conditioning yourself to this habit is what fuels a weak will.If all I expect is to create separation and hurt feelings than it becomes vital to ones one emotional health to evaluate if it is a healthy relationship, or perhaps it isn't worth the effort. Severing ties is difficult in the present, but the future will spur a more vibrant mentality.